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Creation's Healing and Thoth's Confession

Creation’s Healing and Thoth’s Confession

I am a scientist and work more with mind frequencies than those of the heart, such as it is with most beings of the male polarity which is not to say that they are all scientists but that they vibrate and function with a greater amount of mind frequencies and less heart frequencies. The heart frequencies are those of the feminine. What is the difference here and what is the importance? Working with the basic knowledge that everything in existence - “All That Is” -is energy at different frequencies, in different configurations, then mind frequencies are very different than heart frequencies.
When you think of the male energies that start the process of ‘balanced Creation’ using thought (mind), it is then the female energies which hold the space (in the heart) for the thoughts and thus completes the balanced Creation. In physical form this translates into the male starting the process of creation by putting his seed (penis & ejaculate/sperm) while the female holds the space for the seed to meet her egg and gestate (in her womb) and balanced creation is completed. We could not exist in the realm of relativity without this polarity, without the male and female, without the mind and heart frequencies.

Without re-telling the story of Creation or by overly detailing the dysfunction of the first Creational Family beings [told in Where Were You Before the Tree of Life?], we know that this dysfunction has created and perpetuated great imbalance in many sectors of Creation including this sector and its focal point, your planet Earth. You often hear the phrase, “true healing is through the heart” and this is very true. In order for the True Light-Love of Father to return to this sector in full, in order for us all to live in freedom and joy in the original intended state of existence, we must resurrect and re-implement the original blueprint of Father’s Creation, we must achieve a balance of male-female energies. We must take a multi-faceted approach, from micro to macro and vice versa. All levels of creation must be actively working at achieving healing and balance. Each of you must make the effort to balance the heart-mind/ male-female frequencies within. The female/heart frequencies have been suppressed, trapped, blocked and stagnant for so long, with an over-flowing abundance of mind frequencies floating throughout this sector of creation and within each of you.

Male beings, female beings and neutral beings on all levels of existence in this sector have suppressed their female/heart frequencies perpetuating this imbalance. We must awaken these heart frequencies within all of us and activate them in each individual’s vibrational structure. This will call for much emotional/energetic movement of blocked, stagnant energies. Old wounds, old emotions will need to be accessed and dislodged in order for the heart frequencies to be reactivated and vibrating at a healthy and vibrant rate. This is not unlike the unclogging of the arteries of the physical heart in the physical human body so it can return to a healthy functional state. The process of accessing old emotions and energies and dislodging them can be very painful but well worth it and necessary.

So too, and most importantly, must the high-level Beings and Creational Family partake in the healing and balancing process with the emergence of the heart/feminine energies. For if this is not completed at the highest level, the wounds of Creation will never fully heal and the cycle (from macro to micro) of imbalance will perpetuate itself.

It may be difficult for some of you to think of Creator Beings and higher dimensional Beings as not being all-knowing or being imperfect and capable of creating so much dysfunction and imbalance and distortion but, “in the beginning” when these Beings were given sections (voids) of creation to CREATE, we were all like children learning as we went along. The process of healing and attempting to undo the dysfunction that was done is like this as well. We experimented and are still experimenting with different methods and efforts to try and “clean up this mess” and we are all still learning as we go.

I will speak now of my story. I am a scientist and I enjoyed the power which I possessed. I was created with much power but I was also extremely curious, a very good observer and a good student. Although I had familial relationships and heart bonds with many Beings, nothing was more intoxicating to me than my own power and what I could create with it. Having power in and of itself is not necessarily dangerous, but when you add the fear of losing that power to the equation, an over-abundance of mind frequencies and inactive heart frequencies, you create intense greed and lust and extreme misalignment from True Light-Love (i.e., darkness) and the desire to do ANYTHING to hold onto that power and to acquire more of it.
(Note: I am now feeling a great deal of sadness in Thoth’s energy as he is reflecting upon his past actions)

I worked along side Aliczia, a member of the Creational Family, (who was known by many other names as most Creational Beings are) for a very long time. We developed a close heart bond. We had similar thirsts for power and exploration of our curiosities and own Creational abilities. We did much experimentation and manipulation, not only when incarnated on Earth but on all levels of existence. Aliczia was a lover to me and also like a brother at times. Yes, I say brother because in her fragmented state, separated from her first FULL TRUE Self, Callia [the Infinite Mother Spirit for this SuprUniverse], she suppressed her pain and her heart frequencies. She suppressed the feminine in herself because she considered it weak and useless and painful and she activated her mind frequencies to try and be at par with her male counterparts. Unfortunately, that was the case with many female high level Beings as well. They either adapted to one of two states, becoming suppressed, weak and submissive or they suppressed their feminine/heart energies to become more masculine, in both cases disengaging the much needed balancing female/heart energies, which then became blocked and stagnant down through all echelons of Creation in all forms.

The one you call The Magdalene energies is also known as Myrrhiel. Myrrhiel and Aliczia are very similar hence my intense love for both of them. The Being incarnated at this time on Earth carrying the Aliczia energies originally volunteered to take on some of the Myrrhiel energies as it was decided they would be dispersed among several high level Beings (more detail on that at a later time) to incarnate on Earth at this time. She was able to do this because she is a high level Creational Being and had done this in previous incarnations because she had a very similar energetic structure to Myrrhiel and because she was only supposed to host these energies for a short period of time upon incarnating until the Myrrhiel energies were assimilated and healed and taken out of her energetic body. Unfortunately, it was more difficult than anticipated to assimilate and integrate and heal the Myrrhiel energies and some of them stayed with Aliczia much longer than anticipated. When the energetic load became too much for Aliczia she had to break the agreement she made to house the other energies and they were taken out of her energetic structure and transferred to someone else. This overload became too great for Alizcia and for her well-being she had to break the agreement but not before damage was done to her various energetic bodies. Myrrhiel and Alizcia are currently in the process of healing (more as this process unfolds).

This is a little known fact but I, too, became a fragmented Being but not in the same way that Enjilou and Callia fragmented. I will explain to you my scenario. There were aspects of myself that longed intensely to re-align myself with the True Light-Love of Father because I had realized how much pain and dysfunction I had caused, because the false peace and joy of empty power was becoming increasingly unsatisfying and because I was in great pain as well. I believed it was only in re-aligning with Father that I could heal and rid myself of this growing emptiness and pain in my heart. Yet, there were still parts of me that remained attached and addicted to the desire of power and the fear of losing it (lower frequency energies). Parts of me reached higher and higher to realign with the True Light-Love of Father and continually activated higher based frequencies and parts of me remained unchanged, vibrating at the lower level frequencies. It reached the point where the two higher frequencies and lower frequencies became so incompatible that it became impossible for them to exist in the same energetic structure so I broke in two and became fragmented, higher Thoth and lower Thoth who was still very dark and active.

The higher Thoth left for other sectors of Creation for healing and remained in seclusion for a very long period of linear time but returned to this sector of Creation to help undo what he had done and try and convince his lower self to return to the True Light-Love for healing. After Higher Thoth returned to this sector of Creation and the other members of the Creational Family turned toward True Light-Love for healing, it was only a matter of time before lower Thoth made the choice to heal as well. The process of healing is still in progress and energetically we are still not completely integrated but we are healing and de-compartmentalizing and are actively seeking forgiveness from all Creation and learning to forgive ourselves.

The two Thoths is one explanation for the different Thoth energies present in several channelings and interactions with different Beings and activities over the recent Earth years. This is not to mention that of course there are several other entities that have, and are now, masquerading as Thoth, so please access Guidance and use discernment when interacting with a “Thoth entity”.

It may be difficult for some of you to grasp this scenario but think of your human minds and how they are very capable of dissociating and compartmentalizing into two or more very distinct personalities. They become very separate and distinct and vibrate and different frequencies and your psychiatrists work to heal the issues that caused the original “splits” in the first place and reintegrate the personalities into one.
This is all for now.
Be Well
In Light,

{The ongoing Creational story Thoth speaks of here is available free in the first two volumes of Where Were You before The Tree of Life?, available for download at}