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in the quietness
After countless lifetimes of game playing, after 42 years of
preparation, and after 14 years of serving, all of a sudden there\'s a
stillness of understanding and knowing for a fact that the work is
over, has been done to the best of my ability. No grid work to be done.
No Creator beings to work on getting into healing. No darkside that
haven\'t had a reminder that they\'ve lost the war. All the sides have
been set for what is left to come. Just some \'Lightworkers\' who are
still sitting on their fences and need a swift spiritual kick in the
behind that will remind them that \"one cannot serve two Masters.\" And
boy is it quite. Now all there is to do is wait for the next things to

Someone wrote to me the other day about her fortune cookie that was a
waking dream for her that said something along the lines of \'lose the
battle to win the war.\" She knew this was Spirit trying to tell her to
surrender her ego to the Higher Will in order to win those spiritual
rewards that she so seeks to achieve here in this lifetime. For a long
time I\'ve known and observed the fact that we don\'t really know what it
is we believe in until someone asks us. We also rarely have our own
opinions but rather have those lumped upon us by parents, society, and
everyone else but ourselves. That\'s why Guidance shared a number of
exercises throughout the writings to help you get your own ideas and
understandings in a row, and nothing more important that the letter of

It helps align you with your true purpose and with your Highest Will to
serve only that Highest there is in Creation. I see this happening in some
channeling that there a a number of various streams of energy flowing
in to work with them because they have not made a firm decision as to
which level of service they wish to commit to. The level of Guidance you get
depends on the level of commitment you make. Of course everyone says
they want to serve the highest, but then when they find out what that
means and they always tend to back off or simply turn and run away. Think
about this for a while. Think about that \'hero\' you\'ve always dreamt
you were inside your private thoughts, that longing to be the real
person you always knew you were inside yourself. Then take some time to
give it your undivided attention and sit down and do the letter of
intent to the Universe included here, and then allow Spirit to bring your
mission to
you, and to bring to you also those people who need your help and your
energies, and do not turn away from them . . for this IS the lifetime
when all your training and all your spiritual growth up until now has been aimed
and if you do not step up now, then what have all those millions of
lifetimes of learning been for? Think about it, and then do . . .


The exercise: Write a letter of intent to the Universe. In it express
your acceptance of who you are in totality. This means physically,
emotionally, mentally, spiritually, etc. Also express your acceptance
of your mission/purpose here on Earth if it is still available to you
or your willingness to accept whatever else Spirit or your Guidance
would have you do instead.

Express your willingness to do this now in this and in every other
lifetime you have from now on. This will set up a mold for things to
open you to this intent in all the lifetimes to come, to lock it into
your soul matrix if you will.

You may not be exactly clear on what your mission is, but acceptance of
the fact that you are here for some reason expresses your continued
intent to ground in the here and now and serve the Highest Will

Your commitment to doing your mission, this purpose, MUST be in the
physical here and now, manifesting it on the physical plane according
to the schedule you and your Guidance set out before you came to serve.
This does not mean you are just physical, it means however that you do
accept having a physical body while doing your spiritual work
associated with your mission/purpose (and all the pains and problems
associated with living in the physical while doing the mission you came
here to do).

After you complete your letter outlining your acceptance and
commitment, ask for Guidance\'s approval of it or correct if you need.
If you get a yes, lock this intent into your heart as a commitment to
be here now and to serve, then burn it in a little ritual, put it in
your hope chest (*smile) or send it off to the universe in whatever way
shape or form you can devise doing it always with that perfect intent
we\'re talking about.

Then go out and serve.

4. The biggest reason for attachment to old ways, ideas and attitudes,
is the inability to forgive both others and more particularly

Forgiveness/Reclaiming Your Power exercise:

The one thing that must be done above all to begin our own healing with
regard to our own low self-esteem is to love. To forgive both those who
we feel have wronged us, and most importantly of all ourselves, is to
regain our lost power. To reclaim this lost power (that which we have
so readily given away to both friends, family, and enemies alike, I
recommend the following exercise borrowed liberally from the Native
American Shamanic tradition of erasing personal history (and thereby
reclaiming the personal power given away).

Reclaiming your Power:

1. With plenty of time to complete the task no matter how long it
takes, find a quiet comfortable area where you will not be disturbed-a
place where you feel safe, a place where you feel some kind of
nurturance from your surroundings such as a room filled with your
favorite books, a quiet garden space, or somewhere out in nature.

2. Center yourself in whatever way is most comfortable for you - by
chanting, by smudging, or simply by sitting peacefully with your eyes
open or closed for a short period of time.

3. Open yourself to your own highest Good, your Higher Power, some non-
denominational sense of the Cosmos that you know loves you and that you

4. As you find yourself ready, go slowly over the decades of your life -
either chronologically or in reverse order. Think of and/or write down
a list of all those you have been involved with you in some way and to
whom you have given a part of yourself. This could be either in a
positive or negative way through some kind of attachment of love or
hate or fear or some other emotional state. This list should include
such people as your parents, your teachers, your school mates who you
envied or tried to copy, the neighborhood bully, the girlfriends or
boyfriends - real or imagined, the husbands or wives, your children,
your neighbors, the bosses and co-workers with whom you have shared
both good times and bad - everyone who you can say took or was given a
piece of you that you now need to reclaim in this attempt to regain
your personal power.

Kenneth Meadows, in his book The Medicine Way - A Shamanic Path to Self
Mastery, says to use the phrase, \'Things would have been so different
IF . . .\' The things which follow that IF are the very attachments you
now need to release. In releasing attachments we let go of what is
draining us of our personal power. We reclaim the focus and the
attention from the past and are now able to recrystallize it on our
present circumstances and stand in our power and in our strength.

5. Once we have made this list or identified those with whom our
personal power has been in storage, then comes the essential act of
reclaiming our power, thanking - and if necessary, forgiving them, and
ourselves. No matter what has happened between the two of you - things
either positive or seemingly negative - the lessons have been there for
you to learn, and these people have done their best, limited though it
may appear to you, to help you learn your lessons and make you the best
person you can be. Thank them for whatever part they have played in
your own spiritual growth, and forgive them for whatever they did or
did not do to you in any other way. To hold any strong feeling for
anyone in the past is to give away a piece of your energy to that
person, and the personal power you will need here in the very near and
very real future that awaits us all in combating the New World Order.
Do this for each and every person on your list, savoring each moment as
you recall it and then letting it go.

6. And when all is said and done, then look at your own behavior over
these same times and know that, although you may not always have been
at your best, that to live in shame or blame or with some degree of
guilt is the greatest source of giving away your personal power to a
source which is not real. The real Creator has only and is only Love.
Darkness cannot even come near to it because IT is so much Light. If IT
cannot see Darkness, then it certainly does not judge us for it knows
we are learning, and that there is a balance for everything we do. In
this spirit, love yourself as IT loves you, and then forgive yourself.

7. Make a small ritual of burning or destroying your list, and feel the
weight being lifted from your shoulders as your strength and Will and
power return to you. Then be cognizant of every person and situation
that enters your day and may try to steal some of your power away
again. Bless them or the situation and give them love and be on your
way, safe in your newfound strength, prepared for the difficult days
ahead, knowing that though the Darkness may reign for a short time
longer on the planet as it solidifies its power base here - there can
only be one eventual winner - and of that there is no doubt. The Light
will always overcome the Darkness and drive it back into the Void from
whence it first came.

At the end of the exercise do not `think\' or `feel\' you have done it,
instead `KNOW\' you have done it and then will truly all be forgiven and
properly released.

5. Learning to live in the moment, living in the now, is perhaps the
greatest way of changing attitudes and shifting the weight we always
carry along with us when we drag the past along, or conversely live
instead in the future with all its worries and `what ifs\', never
touching ground here and now. . . Samone Myers (Director of CURE
( and Circle the Pyramid Event Coordinator) wrote a
piece titled, Living the Moment Deep lessons From `Groundhog Day\'.
The article certainly resonates, perhaps it will resonate with you, also

\"Have you ever had a moment that you wish you could re-live? Most of us
have at one time or another. Thoughts of \"I could have said so much
more\" or \"I wish I could have done this or that\" cross our mind,
especially at key moments in our life. Mine was what more I could have
said or done before my father died. I understand that it is not to be
re-lived, but we can experience life in a more enlightened manner by
living the moment.

\"What I mean by living the moment came to me in an odd way recently. I
was watching a re-run of the movie, \"Groundhog Day\" starring Bill
Murray. For those that have not seen it, it is about a newscaster
traveling to a small town that has a festival each year in honor of the
groundhog. What ends up happening is he wakes up every morning and re-
lives Groundhog Day. Now the first time I watched this movie years ago,
I thought it was funny, but did not really get much out of it. However,
watching it recently was a different story. Suddenly very profound
thoughts emerged and I took note of these as I watched.

\"At first, the lead character Phil, played by Murray, is in denial and
seeks to find answers to how it is that the same day keeps replaying.
He is totally self-absorbed and is annoyed with most everyone for not
believing him or helping him. He goes out of his way to prove to
associates that he knows what is going to happen next, i.e., a car
passing, a plate dropped in a diner, what a person is going to say,
answers all the questions on Jeopardy, etc. only to find disbelief in
their eyes and more frustration for him.

\"Then, he moves into a phase of anger. Again, only thinking of himself,
he becomes reckless in his behavior to others and to himself. He even
begins to try and kill himself, only to find he is right back in the
same hotel room being awakened at 6 a.m. to the song, \"I got you, Babe\"
by Sonny & Cher. He even goes to the extent of taking advantage of his
predicament without regard to others\' feelings. He finds out intimate
details about women that he wishes to sleep with, only to wake the next
morning feeling emptier. Yet, he continues the same tactic on his
producer, played by Andie McDowell whom he really loves.

\"At first, she is taken by what \"appears\" to be things they have in
common and those little things women like to hear. Andie\'s character,
Rita is somewhat fooled to begin with only to realize an uneasiness
about the situation and a feeling that \"something is not right here.\"
She even has moments of deja-vu, which Phil denies. Feeling worse about
himself, this propels Phil into doing everything he can to win her
heart. He learns French poetry, plays the piano and numerous other
things to get her to fall for him. This only makes her more adamant
that something is not right with the situation.

\"Out of sheer frustration, Phil finally has an epiphany moment that
leads to self-discovery. The defining moment comes when he surrenders.
In his rejection, he withdraws, walking the streets of the little town
bumping into people and feeling blue when suddenly he realizes that he
has walked the same street hundreds of times and passed this homeless
man. Each time in the past, he ignored the man\'s out stretched hand.
But, not this time! He puts a wad of money in the man\'s hand and takes
him into the diner, buying him as much food as the frail, elderly man
wants. Pleased with himself, he is later shocked to discover that the
man died that evening. He is so jarred by this after helping the man
that he becomes obsessed with changing destiny. In one moving scene, he
tries to resuscitate the man in an alley. He holds the man, crying out
to God asking \"why?\"

\"It is at this moment that he stands up, brushes himself off and \"gets
it.\" Each morning thereafter he wakes feeling rejuvenated and excited
about what the day will bring. He discovers who needs help in the town
and goes out of his way to make each and every person feel better about
him or herself. Meanwhile, Rita takes notice and \"feels\' the difference
in the rawness and truthfulness of his actions. She spends an
extraordinary \"day\" witnessing the changes in him and the effect he has
on others. Afterwards, she falls for him when he carves a beautiful ice
sculpture of her face. That night they make love and wake in each
other\'s arms. It is then and only then that it becomes the day after
Groundhog\'s Day. Recognizing what has occurred, Phil is ecstatic at
what each moment will now bring.

\"Reading between the lines, I was astounded at how profound the
messages in this movie really are. We learn that there are phases to
our spiritual growth and enlightenment that most of us have in common.
We struggle with these issues in this lifetime and over many lifetimes.
It teaches us that the more self absorbed we are without regard to our
environment and others only leads to stuck feelings and loneliness,
repeating moments until we \"get it.\" We also learn that once we
surrender to the fact that all is in Divine Order a flow emerges taking
us in directions above and beyond anything we imagined. Finally, as
Phil demonstrated, unconditional love and compassion for our self and
others is the ultimate act that defines us and leads to living the

6. Lastly, you\'ve all probably heard the song, \"What if God were
one of us . . . ?\" Write down in five words or less for each one, all
the things you can think of that a God in human form would do TO HELP
those he created and sent out to experience every aspect of life for
him, without making them cripples.

Here the thing to remember is that, as one wise person once wrote, \"The
Master gives us the lessons we need, not necessarily the lessons we

What is it that\'s going to help a person grow without weakening them by
actually doing it for them or making it too easy to do? Unfortunately
mankind seems to learn best from the hard lessons and not from the easy

Wishing you strength in this pursuit, Peter